Worst night of my F*CKIN LIfe

**rhythmatik** · 11-01-08, 11:55 PM

I'm sorry to post this here.. my best and only friend died in august.. I've always figured.. I'd rather have a few good friends.. than a bunch of shitty one's.. anyhow..

the story goes..

I was engaged to be married.. about 4 months ago.. I met my current gf at my work.. we became friends.. good friends.. I broke it off with my ex becuz she turned out to be NUTS.. I got together with my current gf.. and we have been extremely happy.. like we made people sick.. with how happy we were.. I mean we had fights and shit.. but always forgive.. except..

lastnight.. she asked if I still look at porn.. I told her that I did once this month.. then it was all down hill after that..
I gave her a sincere apology after my mom explained to me why she was so hurt.. then.. just like 20mins ago.. I told her..
"i cant live like this.. you resenting me.. not letting me touch you.. kiss you.. hold you.."
"its not fair to me.. its not fair to your son.. its not fair to you.. pretending your happy with me.. when your miserable"

then she said "i'll start looking for a new roommate 2maro"

**Paradigm** · 11-02-08, 12:44 AM

Sorry to hear it mate, I think we all have a few of those nights in our lives - and there is very little that makes it go away right in the moment.

For what it's worth - her reaction to the topic, while often times expected, is also not a logical or a positive one. I fully get why she would be hurt / upset, but at the same time it actually - imo - points towards some underlying issues that would be likely to surface one way or the other. Things like trust and self confidence come to mind - but without more information that's all irrelevant.

Feel free to shoot the shit here, this community is certainly good for listening - but remember that action isn't always the answer, and sitting on it and letting it settle can often times be a better option, even if it feels like you NEED to act.

Again - sorry to hear it, hope it improves after a night's sleep or two.

**dustyCALIBER** · 11-02-08, 01:03 AM

This might shed some light on it...
I will send you a Pm too

http://www.texasteamplayers.com/index.php?topic=43077.0

**deputyfestus** · 11-02-08, 08:43 AM

Been there and done that,then one day outta the blue I stopped in at a little bar and grill for a drink and snack I walked over to the bar set down and waited for a bartender but no one, I yelled HELLO and from around the corner stepped the cutest petite little redhead I'd seen in my life! Our eyes met and it was like spiritual our souls leaped from one to the other.So I believe when the right one comes along you will know it deep down in very essence of your being and you can't shake it loose,my wife and I have had our dark times but our love always wins in the end! 24 yrs,3 kids and 5 grand kids :9

25th in May 2009

**rhythmatik** · 11-02-08, 04:19 PM

damn, that's the kind of love I wish I have some day..

She forgave me.. this morning.. then this afternoon.. hell broke loose again..

**jmw_man** · 11-03-08, 09:16 PM

Here is what you need to do.

Make lots of mistakes, make lots of rights, and work on your financial future. It's important to learn everything you can to survive what could happen in the future. In the end, your biggest friend will be your age.