DJ Ms. White

I've been back on Zyprexa for a while now for my schizophrenia. It worked great in the past, but it gave me the munchies (it was like having a guy pointing a gun at my head telling me to eat); I ended up putting on 60 lb. in 2 months. Luckily, my cholesterol levels stayed well within the safe range. It was either going back onto the Zyprexa...or more severe measures.

Luckily, the Zyprexa is working great, I don't have the munchies, and I've actually lost about 10 lb!

The bitter part is that I pulled the plug on my BF2 subscription. All good things must come to an end, I guess.

Editing 60 full length songs in 2 hours! Can I do it? I think I can!

The last several months have been tough. I've been dealing with the unfortunate side effects of my medicines not working. That really shot me in the foot as far as classes. While I could manage to go to classes, I was barely able to do anything else other than that and read the forums from my phone (yay for 3G). I also unfortunately could not keep up with classes while I was in them; I would write down notes, but I wouldn't comprehend them with the voices distracting me except in my thermodynamics class (I've already taken taken engineering Thermo I and II).

Today though, my mother realized that since I have two disabilities that I can stay on her insurance listed as "disabled and unable to support myself". This will ...

So, as I woke up at 3AM today I decided to load up F.E.A.R. I consider it a classic game with some of the best AI I've encountered and some scary moments (not gory scary, but "oh shit something is happening out of my control" scary). It also has a pretty demented story line if you take the time to learn in game.

After it finished loading, I got to playing. 16 minutes later I stopped. The graphics were just sub-par especially the smoke. Mind you, I'm not comparing the game to say Metro 2033, but games that came out at the same time like HL2 and Doom 3. Those games still look pretty good and at the time had amazing graphcis. The water effects in HL2 (especially Lost Coast) were something else. It just felt like lazy and/or ...

My descent into schizophrenia began in the 7th grade. I had started being overconfident with HW and tests. So, the first test of every six weeks, I would generally only get a B. Getting As on every other test and HW was no big deal, so I would retain my A+ GPA easily, but my parents took issue with that. A B wasn't good enough and that meant getting beaten. So, I started to lie to them when it came down to progress report time. To lie effectively, I started having mock conversations in my head covering every possible question my parents might ask. This worked quite well. Realizing this, I soon extended the technique to preparing for Socratic seminars and debates. Again, it worked quite well. For some reason though, no matter how nice I was, ...