DonVitoJr

The game that most rush. The game that many can not stand to play. The game we both decided to take with out realizing it. During this game we both realized that we both wanted the other. We realized that we were both setup to fail when i tried to make more of things. We realized the reason why we were both setup was so he could say your his, and not mine. But all he did was brush you under the carpet and didn't care about the things in your life, and cheated. He left you a mess, breaking your reputation and making a new one that was not true.

Secretly, you kept from me that you liked me. I didn't keep it much of a secret though that i liked you. During the time we got close to each other. I helped you in the time of need and you ...

The things you told me about how you didn't like the life you were living. The situations you are in. The aftermath of many destructive forces. The things you wanted differently. The things you wanted. The way you had to deal with them. It all made me realize that we both have similar issues, but in our different ways. All the major things that happened to you through out your life, made mine look miniscule. But you made it through them all, but not it the right way. Keeping them in side you to show that you are not weak. To show that you are fine, when in fact you are crumbling. Nobody to support you, nobody to give help, nobody to give guidance. Only people that made you crumble more. The people that were suppose to help, never did. They ...

Losing control of my mind, wanting for the one i love. Becoming unhealthy from the pain that i feel. Not knowing how to deal with emotions that i have never felt before. Wanting so much in life, but struggling to grasp them. I don't know what to think anymore. I need help, but who would know how i feel. I cant explain my feelings because they are to great to put into words. Stress is known to take a person down, and i cant get back up. Stressed over the little things in life to some, but new and large to me. I cant cope with the stress over the decisions the one i love has made, but i know that i can not hurt her. I try to not hurt my self, but i cant stop thinking of her.

Every time her image appears, the stress takes me over. ...

The one that i love is just within reach, but too far away to grasp. Beauty is one thing, personality is another, in the end all that matters is that i care about her and respect her not for what she looks like, but who she is. Fueled by my ever growing love for her keeps the dream alive, but powering the motives to keep it alive are difficult. Second guessing, predicting the worst but not prepared enough for the best, its a challenge that i took upon my self not to hurt her or my self in the name of love.

I've seen many different women in my life, all were beautiful but only one has never made me feel like this before. There is something different about her that is intoxicating. Many say its her looks and that i cant stop looking ...