Little things get to you.

**DJ Ms. White** · 07-29-11, 12:13 AM

My antidepressant has just been plain not working even after the dose was upped by my psychiatrist. He doesn't want to a different medication.

He wants me to use therapy to compensate for my meds not working. I have no reason to be unhappy. I have so many things going for me in the right direction. My depression is 95% chemical.

Right now, I'm like a junkie hoping from one thing to the next trying to stay afloat. Tonight's thing was making mango sorbet for my friends...however, the sorbet never formed up, and I'm feeling pretty fucking low because of it especially seeing as I saw almost all of my friends only take a few bites of the "sorbet" and then wash it down the drain.

Fucking A. Doesn't help that because of a fubar situation with my health insurance (thank you Republicans) I had to be completely off of my meds from last Friday until last night. I could have bought them outright if I had my next paycheck (meds cost $850 without insurance, my antipsychotic costing $600 of that), but I don't get that until next Wednesday.

If anyone has suggestions for things to stay happy, I would greatly appreciate them.

**moving-target** · 07-29-11, 12:20 AM

guns music and video games also

**Savage** · 07-29-11, 12:48 AM

Chocolate=edorphens.

**bust331** · 07-29-11, 01:54 AM

I don't want to give you the wrong advice, but you pretty much said it yourself: "My depression is 95% chemical."

From the sounds of it, you've grown to be dependent on meds. Maybe replacing therapy with meds isn't such a bad idea. It could possibly really help, and make you much less dependent on your meds.