Thread: Official Reserve Slot Request for WildGunsTomcat

Okay. Let's start this over then the RIGHT way.

You're right, I'm an asshole for what I said. I'm not going to try to make excuses for it.

I am not a disingenuous piece of shit. I have strong opinions yes, but I honestly did NOT want my post to come off as racist. Again, I'm not making excuses for what I said or did, but I joke alot. And sometimes I go a little too far, and when I do and get checked for it I'm the first to go to that person and make sure that I make it right. When I posted what I did, I was laughing because I was honestly trying to joke around. Going back and looking at it, yes it was racist and nasty and unecessary. What we say in chat doesn't read the way we want it to all the time. And imagine my horror when I check my post the next day and it's locked up, and there are some very pissed off people at me. So immediately I started apologizing to people, because I am a team player and I do care about how people feel about me. Again, I know we've done this before but I want you to understand my mindset through all of this so it's on record.

And, I have to admit to you personally that I did read alot of your banned forum and admin complaint forum...and when I saw it was you that responded to me here I came at you with an automatic attitude. I can't explain to you why...maybe it was big balls syndrome. I saw how you spoke to people sometimes and I had a knee jerk reaction to it. I know it sounds ridiculous but that's just what happened. That's the only way I know how to explain it. I saw that you were coming to kick my balls in and I said fuck that and went after you. And that was wrong of me, I pre-judged YOU, and it was hypocritical. Again, I'm not making excuses, just trying to explain my mindset to you big dog. You come off as a hardass in chat, and I'm a combative person at times. I don't mean to be, it just happens. So I apologize for it.

That is NOT indicative of who or WHAT I am in any way. And I deeply apologise if it seemed like that.

I understand what it is you want this community to be. I can wholly appreciate it, simply because I tried to do the same thing for 3 years and failed. I can honestly admit that.

I want us to be friends. Honestly. I can appreciate your strong approach to people and your ideals, because without a strong focus and ideals a community like this will fail. I know this isn't about you or I, and it's about the community. I made it personal, and I didn't have to. I have a temper and I can readily admit it.

And finally I must apologize to you. I didn't mean to come off as a jerk, I just get hot headed sometimes when it feels like someone is judging me. But, you had a right to. This isn't my forum, it's yours.

Please accept my very public apology.

And if you don't want to give me a slot at this time, I understand that too. I made an ass of myself. If you want to wait and see how it goes, I can understand that completely. I'm new here and I haven't made the best impression so far.

Originally Posted by ...bigdog...

We don't require apologies. Being sorry doesn't change anything.

You have said what needed to be said. Since your slot is a bit more controversial, the BF2 admins will vote on it's approval. Shouldn't take more than a few days.

Fair enough. Thanks for the chance to explain myself.

Hey Tomcat,

The admins voted in your favor.  Hope that helps bend your thoughts of who we are as a community as I believe your issues speaks to the strength we aim for here at TTP.

I've sent you a PM with instructions, and will be looking forward to getting that slot active.

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