Life

The things you told me about how you didn't like the life you were living. The situations you are in. The aftermath of many destructive forces. The things you wanted differently. The things you wanted. The way you had to deal with them. It all made me realize that we both have similar issues, but in our different ways. All the major things that happened to you through out your life, made mine look miniscule. But you made it through them all, but not it the right way. Keeping them in side you to show that you are not weak. To show that you are fine, when in fact you are crumbling. Nobody to support you, nobody to give help, nobody to give guidance. Only people that made you crumble more. The people that were suppose to help, never did. They ...

Losing control of my mind, wanting for the one i love. Becoming unhealthy from the pain that i feel. Not knowing how to deal with emotions that i have never felt before. Wanting so much in life, but struggling to grasp them. I don't know what to think anymore. I need help, but who would know how i feel. I cant explain my feelings because they are to great to put into words. Stress is known to take a person down, and i cant get back up. Stressed over the little things in life to some, but new and large to me. I cant cope with the stress over the decisions the one i love has made, but i know that i can not hurt her. I try to not hurt my self, but i cant stop thinking of her.

Every time her image appears, the stress takes me over. ...

The one that i love is just within reach, but too far away to grasp. Beauty is one thing, personality is another, in the end all that matters is that i care about her and respect her not for what she looks like, but who she is. Fueled by my ever growing love for her keeps the dream alive, but powering the motives to keep it alive are difficult. Second guessing, predicting the worst but not prepared enough for the best, its a challenge that i took upon my self not to hurt her or my self in the name of love.

I've seen many different women in my life, all were beautiful but only one has never made me feel like this before. There is something different about her that is intoxicating. Many say its her looks and that i cant stop looking ...

I love the ocean... everything about it seems to bring out the best in me. It doesn't help that I surf, and it is kinda hard to practice that in Colorado.

It isn't possible for me to put in words how much I miss the waterfront. The boardwalk, the wildlife... hell, I can even tolerate most people out there.

What I am trying to say is, I miss the ocean. It is important to me in life, and not having something like that with you truly sucks.

So today was a pretty boring day, I didn't wake up until really late and so we went to get brunch, but our aunt called us and so we waited. Those "15 minutes" turned into an hour. At that time once we went to go get brunch, Maxim Palace in Kwai Fong was packed. So we went down a floor to get some food real quick at Shanghai something. I forget the name because the food sucked. It wasn't even that great and in the end they charged a lot, a lot for Hong Kong standards. After that we all went our seperate ways since we couldn't decide on something. Me and my dad went to Tsim Sha Tsui, he ended up getting an upset stomach from the Shanghai place and so we went home. Which is why I'm writing the blog. The story of this photo is we were ...