Thread: i wake up with a sour taste in my mouth....

.....yup still bitter, im cool, but bitter.

I just want everyone to know that seeing the finalization of the votes, and my vote count compared to everyone else, has now made decide weather i ever come back at all....ever. Im so fucking pissed off still about the situation. I know i was treated fairly, I know the process was done the same like anyone else, i know bigdog wasnt biased........but man, the last couple weeks ive been doing a lot of thinking. These people just straight up dont believe me!

These people dont trust me, and probably never will. And that's fine. Losing my adminship has really hit a soft spot in my heart.....Its like I feel like my fiancee just left me for my best friend. Anyone know what that feels like?? IT FUCKING SUCKS.....A LOT.

Ever blamed someone for doing something, then finding out they never did anything? You feel like an ass dont you.

If im blamed for leaking log in info and a vote came out, me being GUILTY, why the fuck wasnt i perma banned Wuoldnt you BAN someone for leaking info? The votes say it all....IM GUILTY..RIGHT?? Isnt that how it is?? The majority of the admin/mod community thinks im guilty.....why am i not banned then. (No, im not asking to be banned, just making a fucking point, i bet someone read that and thought, "ok, let's ban syrringe!")

Its funny i lost my adminship for supposedly being a risk of "leaking" log in info to grey...WHEN GREY NEVER LOGGED INTO THE SITE IN THE FIRST PLACE.....HE NEVER DID IT. He made up everything so he would get a rise out of bigdog and all the other highs....cuz thats how he is....HE NEVER LOGGED INTO THE SITE UNDER ANYONES INFO...CHECK, YOU WONT FIND ANYTHING....I had grey confess over the phone (this was a little over a week ago).....I said dude, "Tell me now, who the fucks name did you sign in under, cuz im not believing you." He says "yeah man i never logged in, im sorry for lying i just wanted a rise."

But w/e on that, im not trusted....so apply any amount of validity to the above paragraph, its the truth.

If one day im offered my adminship back, cool. If not, w/e.....see you when i see you.

I know who is on my side and who isnt...those who called me on the phone, txt msg'd me, email'd, PM'd, I couldnt thank you enough and tell you what it meant to me. Those who voted in my favor...i know who you are, and i love you for it. (not in a homo way )once again, im sorry for being mad still....it just fucking sucks and i miss playing.....im just so mad i dont FEEL like playing....isnt that weird??

No i dont want sympathy, I just want people to know how syrringe is doing currently.......still pissed.

Just read the avatar over, and over.

Originally Posted by Syrringe

and i love you for it. (not in a homo way )

That's too bad, would you reconsider ? If you ever wonder what that sour taste is in your mouth, just ask. :10

Originally Posted by CivilWars

At this point you can prove everyone 100% wrong, or 100% correct. That choice is yours.

Civil

100% corrrect?!!! HA!!! that means i would have to go back on my word, feelings, and dignity, and actually call grey on the phone and say, "OK man, heres the plan, u ready to fuck ttp in teh bu77z0rz?...."

FUCK THAT SHIT. I dont have time for that shit..i work 60 hrs a week, im moving, i have a fiancee and a shit load of bills to worry about....oh right, AND IM A GROWN ASS MAN I dont have to prove anything, except loyalty...i think ive already proven that.. If i had access to pull up logs for IP's signed in on the day in question,,,THEN i could prove to you that grey never logged in....but i cant, so i cant prove anything.

even if i told grey to come in here and come clean, people STILL wouldnt believe me.

im beating a dead horse. but i like beating things.

LOL gtfo strange, go back to the pc forum. You're mocking "thats just the way he is" bullshit is further pissing me the fuck off.....dont you mock me...

FYI mr big pants,.....I already cussed him out and told how fucking pissed off i am at him, and how i cant forgive him, how he owes me,....he knows he fucked up...then the ipwn22 posts......you better damn well believe i called him and chewed him the fuck out....LOUDLY. He's bitter and mad about his last vote, WHO WOULDNT BE? He knows how childish he's being. To tell you the truth, we have grown apart quite a bit since he moved back to SA...i talk to him on the phone maybe 1 - 2 times a month.

W/e.........................

I'll be waiting on the server for ya... Looking over at the other team thinking, "Hmmm, if Syrringe were here, maybe that team could actually give us a run for our money." Hang in there and don't go anywhere! FUCKER!

Wouldn't you rather come play a nice game of global thermonuclear war? ..... errrr... I mean 2142. Sorry, WarGames flashback.

As you hear in the military all the time, "honor the threat". Grey is the threat. Mury pretty much already nailed it so I won't reiterate his points.

Problem is, Grey likes to keep things stirred up to the point that its unclear as to what the real truth is. If we could find a digital restraining order, I'd be all for it.

In *MY* opinion, you're an asset whose repuatation has gotten dinged. Kind of like Harley Davidsons. Got beatup for being substandard, leaking oil everywhere and all that jazz. But HD came back stronger than ever (crap, just thought about that, it applies to Macs also).

Personally, I don't think you're untouchable. Just weather the storm. One of the things that works in your favor (only in my opinion, not talked with anyone else about it) is your current job. You couldn't be a chump and work there. But again, its the Grey factor that keeps things unbalanced around here.

Syrr,

I didn't post in the last thread you made in this forum, but I feel it's time to post here.

I think the fact that the very same people who voted against you HAVEN'T banned you yet speaks very highly of both them and you. I'm sure they understand the grey area of this issue...no pun intended...and sometimes it's just the "better safe than sorry" route you've got to take in life. They didn't abandon all ties to you, they just said, "Hey man, until shit blows over, if it ever does, we just think it'd be better if you didn't have that much power".

It's very much that whole "guilty by association" thing going on right here now. Everyone recognizes it, and sometimes it does blow ass. It's the character, demeanor, and diplomacy you carry with you during those times that help/hurt one's reputation. Come on back and kick it, it's not the red scare.

Originally Posted by laggyNgroovy

Wouldn't you rather come play a nice game of global thermonuclear war? ..... errrr... I mean 2142. Sorry, WarGames flashback.

As you hear in the military all the time, "honor the threat". Grey is the threat. Mury pretty much already nailed it so I won't reiterate his points.

Problem is, Grey likes to keep things stirred up to the point that its unclear as to what the real truth is. If we could find a digital restraining order, I'd be all for it.

In *MY* opinion, you're an asset whose repuatation has gotten dinged. Kind of like Harley Davidsons. Got beatup for being substandard, leaking oil everywhere and all that jazz. But HD came back stronger than ever (crap, just thought about that, it applies to Macs also).

Personally, I don't think you're untouchable. Just weather the storm. One of the things that works in your favor (only in my opinion, not talked with anyone else about it) is your current job. You couldn't be a chump and work there. But again, its the Grey factor that keeps things unbalanced around here.

im not coming in here to attack anyone...(reference to a pm i got)....im just stating points and venting a little...thats all i am doing.

Yeah pine i understand what you mean.....it..............just................sucks .

Laggy, your words always make my eyes open. I understand what you mean fully...i do honor the threat. which is why i said to grey over the phone what i did....VERBATIM: "why the fuck are you doing this to me matt? what the fuck are you thinking do you know what this is doing to me and tr Its not fair and I cant fucking forgive you for it man......its a shitty thing to do to your friend and you're being selfish. STAY THE FUCK OUT OF TTP. You and me still have each other, this is someting totally different man, this is recreation, a hobby i enjoy, something i would never want to lose. You fucked up big time when you got excommunicated and you know it. And now its just fucking out of control man."

But for anyone to believe me or not is their choice, be it the wrong choice or not. It just sucks.....

ANYONE i dont care who you are, where you come from, what your beliefs are, what religion you belong to, ANYTHING, IF you were in my shoes, think about it, you'd be pissed off to high hell as well. You cant tell me you'd sit there and say,,,,"Hmmph, ok, i accept this. I'm not going to put up a fight for myself."

....thats all im saying